I'm weird, but harmless...

I know, I know...haven't been doing a very good job of keeping up with this lately. Truth is, I just haven't had a lot that I both want and can talk about. I'm sure at some point I'll be able to get on here and bore you with some other part of my neurosis, but right now, things aren't so bad. I don't have a lot to complain about, and although I'm still not exactly my biggest fan, I don't hate myself nearly as much as usual. Progress, friends. Or I'm taking it as such.

I was asked to write about my touch of OCD. I'm not really sure that's what it is...I think it's more of just my personality. I don't know...OCD is a serious issue for some people, and my quirks aren't nearly that bad. It basically comes out in two ways: list making, and wanting to know the 'whole story.'

First, the lists. I'm not the type of person that makes lists of what I need at the grocery, or even "To Do" lists (although I try to do those when I can.) No, my lists are generally of what I have, or want. I have a list of every movie and TV show (by episode) I own, in order of release date. Same with every book and comic book (by author and year), song (by artist and year), every video game, even all the friends I have on FB. I have no idea why I do these lists. For some reason, I just find it comforting to know what's there, and what isn't.

Second, I want to know 'the whole story.' I can't start in the middle of something...I need to start at the beginning. For example, I can't see the second movie in a series before seeing the first. I can't pick up a book or start watching a TV show in the middle of the run...I want to start at the beginning and work my way through it. TV shows on DVD have been such a blessing for me. I can start at episode 1, and just keep going until the end of the series. This leaves me on the outside of a lot of things. I've never seen 'Dexter' because I missed the beginning (I have the DVD's...I'll catch up.) Same with a lot of other shows...I didn't watch 'Lost' or any of the other big name shows because I missed the start.

I think this comes down to my belief that everything is inter-connected, and you can't understand where you are if you don't know where you've been. By starting at the beginning, I can see the whole story unfold, and see how everything connects. With the lists, I can see what came before it, and what could be using whatever I'm enjoying as a block to help build it's world. I believe that almost everything in this world is derivative of something else...I'm not only a product of my past, but also a product of my father and his past, and my father's father, and so on. Same in the world of entertainment, or science, or philosophy...everything builds upon everything else that came before it. Or, maybe, I'm just a little quirky and like to make weird lists. At the very least, it keeps me busy.