Oral fixation with my foot

God, can I keep my foot out my mouth? Evidently not...I've taken my oral fixation too far, seems like.

First, I had to put my cat down last night. I'm completely torn up about it. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done. Not the hardest, but up there in the top five, no doubt. I know it was the right decision, it was the best thing for her, yada yada yada. I want her here. I miss her. She was the constant in my life over the last six months. My boy would come and go, girls have come and gone, but Sasha was always here, waiting for me to sit down so she could climb on my chest. Best cat ever...not sure I'm going to even try getting another pet. I'm honestly not sure I can handle going through this again.

Speaking of girls, my girl came with me last night. I honestly don't think I could have done it without her. She kinda out-ted us on FB last night and today. It's weird, because I've always been very careful about that. I never wanted to appear to be "that guy"...with this girl, then that one, then a different one. I've never announced my relationships in public. I was waiting until I was confident that she would be around for a while...and I'm totally good with this one being out there. Surprisingly (to me), I feel really, really good about it, and I honestly don't care that it's public. Of course, I'll do a complete 180 if she ends up dumping me, but right now, I'm happy.

Now what would make her dump me? Back to the original point...me sticking my foot in my mouth. I know, intellectually, that sometimes the right answer is "yes" or "no." Why do I CONSTANTLY feel the need to explain every decision I make, every opinion I have, and why do I always have to "couch" everything I say? No one asks for that, and it causes me no end of problems. I get asked a question, and instead of going with a simple "yes", I have to give an "almost yes" with a 30 minute explanation as to why I feel that way. The answer is basically "yes" anyway. I try to be so careful to not be called a liar or have it thrown in my face later that I end up confusing the issue and just pissing people off. New 'late' resolution...to use a simple "yes" or "no" where appropriate, and stop being such a pain in the ass. Sometimes, you have to throw caution to the wind a bit, and follow your gut, and if it ends up later that you the situation changes and what you said before is no longer true, you deal with it. That's a fight that's deserving, rather than creating one trying to tiptoe on the edge of caution.