I have a tendency, when something isn't working, to just want to blow it up and start over. If the spreadsheet I'm designing isn't what I want, start from scratch. Don't like the progress I've made in a game...start over. Computer acting up...format the hard drive and rebuild. When I do this, I can usually make it much better than it was by avoiding all the mistakes I made.
Can't be done in life, though. I make a mistake, and I'm stuck with it. Maybe if we had the technology presented in "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind," where we could just go in and erase memories, I could fix things. So, I'm stuck. I can 'start over' in an existing relationship, but there's always the history there. Hard feelings and memories of my stupidity carry over. Same with my job. Just can't 'start from scratch.'
I could always try to find a new job, or a new relationship, but that's not easy. That only leaves one thing to do...fix it. And I'm just not very good at fixing things. Everything gets patched and covered in duct tape. Unfortunately, they don't make duct tape for fixing the things I screw up. I can only fix it the best I can, and hope it heals. But there are always cracks...
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