Hmmm...it's been almost a week, and my last post was about as depressing a post as I've put up. Sorry about that. It hasn't been the easiest of times, lately....not easy, but they have been fairly happy. It's a contradiction, I know.
It's always sad when things end, or when the form of something ends. I still have what I consider a pretty good relationship with my ex-wife...she's still one of my best friends in the world. But I was sad when our marriage ended. Although the relationship didn't completely end, the form of it did, and that was hard to take.
I had another of those 'changes' over the last couple weeks, and it hurt. I have said before...I don't think I'm insane for trying the same thing over and over, I'm just optimistic that I'll eventually figure it out, and it will work. There does come a point, however, when you have to realize that no matter how many times you've tried, it just isn't going to get there. Maybe it's the situation, maybe it's the timing, maybe there's too much history. Regardless, it's always difficult to let go. It's difficult not to say "let's try this one more time." I cling to the past...way too much, usually. I made the decision to let go. Wasn't an easy one to make, and I may regret it, who knows? But I felt it was the right one at this time.
But where one door closes, others open. There are things that enter your life, be it a person, a thing, a pet, whatever, that changes it, maybe forever. Reminds you of the good things in your life, and why it's worth it to be here. That deserves it's own post, though...more to come later.
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