There are times that I read through these posts and wonder what the hell I was thinking. Then there are others that I actually kind of like, in a not-at-all-too-proud-of-myself way. I'd still like to do more with blog than sit around and bitch about my feelings, though. I'm not exactly sure what that will be...pimp my favorite music, movies, book reviews...I have no idea. Maybe I'll just be so happy that I can shut the hell up, or I'll come on here and give advice about the secrets to my success (as soon as I have some.)
In the meantime, here I am. I was thinking about 'romance' earlier. I am, flat out, not romantic, at least in a classical sense. I'm nobody's knight in shining armor. I don't typically buy flowers (what's the point? Yes, they're pretty...they also die shortly after I give them. What kind of symbol of my love is THAT?), or chocolates. I don't constantly call or text, nor do I need my partner next to me constantly. I've never announced to everyone that I was "in a relationship with" someone on FB (although, to be honest, I'm kinda looking forward to that someday.) I'm not likely to sweep anyone off their feet like Fabio in a romance novel. I know that some girls like this stuff...they live for it. Those girls aren't the ones that are interested in me for very long.
Here's the thing, though. I do believe in love, and I do believe in romance. I just think about it a little differently. I always have a song that's 'ours.' When I'm with someone, I'm WITH them. When I kiss, I kiss...I use my hands, not in a 'groping' way, but instead I want to run them through her hair, or touch her face. Same with making love. I rarely 'have sex.' I have to be honest...if my goal is just to climax, I can do it quicker and easier by myself. If I'm going to go through the time and effort of being with someone else, it's for the entire experience. I want to touch her, taste her, smell her, talk to her...I want to totally connect with her.
Take a step back...getting lost in the 'sex' part. Some guys excel at that 'classical romance' stuff. I've never been good at it. And I've never needed someone to sweep ME off my feet. I find it much more 'romantic' to be with someone who shows me how much she cares for me by listening to me, being more than just physically present when I'm with her, caring about me. Gifts are nice...a connection, one that's mental, spiritual and physical, is much better.
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