Over the past week and a half, things have gone nuts. I described last week's fun...horrible week at work, power window breaking, check engine light came on, forgot the kid's homework on Thursday, near miss on the highway. This weekend, I had a light bulb blow in the one place in the house that I can't reach without a ladder (which I don't own), missed the boy's Taekwando tourney, and fell down the stairs at my house (I'm okay...fell on my ass, and it's well padded.) This morning, I forgot my laptop at home...didn't realize it until I had made the hour commute to work. Turned around to come back home and get it, and sat on the highway for 20 minutes due to an accident.
I'm truly trying to keep a positive outlook. I'm trying to stay upbeat, and understand that these things happen, that it's just a coincidence that they're all happening at once. I'm still very blessed. But man, it's hard to keep the attitude positive sometimes. It seriously makes me want to just crawl in a hole, and stay there.
I wonder why I'm here. Why do these things happen? How do 'normal' people survive when it feels like their world is falling apart? I am fortunate to know some extremely positive people, and I just don't know how they do it. Things like this build up, and I'm ready to give in. It makes me feel weak, and broken.
I'm not weak, though. I am damaged, but I'm not broken. I will get through this, and things will start to look up. I just hope it's sooner rather than later.
We become like the five people we are with the most. I know we can't always choose who we work with or live with, so I try to choose the rest very carefully. I make sure I am in the presence of positive, energetic, happy, insprired, people on a regular basis so I can't slip into negativity, depression, and crankiness for long.
ReplyDeleteI surround myself with...well, me, really. Could be that's problem #1.
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