One of the first things you need to do when you start a project is to figure out what it is you're trying to accomplish. The end result may differ, either because you change your mind or don't quite get there, but the first key part is to decide what it is that you want. I haven't the slightest idea what I want most of the time.
I have a vague idea, I suppose. I want my son to grow up healthy and happy, knowing the difference between right and wrong and trying to be a productive citizen of the world. I'd like to have a job that I enjoy, that allows me to pay my bills, and that keeps me engaged. I'd like to find a girl whose company I enjoy, who enjoys my company, and that I can spend my time with (if she's a latino, long-haired brunette with glasses who likes to wear sweat pants and looks good in them, so much the better...but I'm pretty flexible on all of those. Personality trumps everything.)
But that's about it. I don't have a specific plan, and I don't feel like I'm actively working towards any of that, except maybe the boy. Of course, that's the most important one, but it would be nice to achieve all of them. I hate my job, and I send out resumes, but I'm not REALLY working toward finding another one. I'm completely hesitant about the girl thing...we've discussed it many times, but I haven't decided I'm really worth anyone's effort yet. Until I can get over that hump, I'm just treading water.
Given that, can there really be any surprise that I haven't reached my goals yet? I haven't decided on exactly what those goals even should be, let alone figured out how to get there. Maybe THAT'S what I need to consider first.
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